Wednesday, October 3, 2018

Always wrong policy

Always wrong policy.
I know, because i feel that i know, and in my mind i think that i know that i am 100% correct in being correct. Right?..
As far as myself can tell i am, right.
But there are few times when something is ever 100%.. at most i could say something 99% true and factual, or even 99.99% true.
If I'm calling something 100% correct, then i am bound to find myself actually wrong.
There are always two side of the story, and between you and me(50/50) him and her (25/25/25/25) us and them... you find that the claim to being right, is like a multiple sided polygon, that has many faces. All of them different, but all of them just as true as the next in their own rights, and just as false when cross related.
Take this with the fact that I suspect that despite almost 3 decades of being alive, I have only covered a small fraction of the surface area of what would be my side of this intellectual polygon, and you can pretty much see that the room for error ranges far and wide.
My quest for answers is a quest done by trial and error. My life is a expiriment drawn theory rather than a inherent infalliable law. As much as i wish i was given a cheat sheet for life by some all knowing omnipitent being, I havnt. And that's frustrating... it is honestly.
I hate being wrong.
Jumping up onto the platform of a statement beleiving yourself to be correct. Calling up your personal Dictionary of perfection to lay down the truth of the land.
And then facts are checked, and new information is brought up, and suddenly your solid platform of truth is turned into extra-thin spaghetti, along with your pride, emotional security, and personal credibility.
"The warrior of truth has fallen!"The bystanders jeer, whether they are actually there or not...
And i am left a Wiley Coyote, once again at odds with gravity off the edge of another cliff after my genius plot has been foiled. Like Wiley Coyote, i find those falls to be both painful and frustrating.
I have now, after so much time expiriencing the"error" part in my trials by such, developed a mode of thinking that ensures that i always have my feet on actual ground.
So here is my statement.
I am always wrong.
It dosnt matter what it is. Whether i am talking about something, doing something, or thinking something. I am always wrong about it.
Even if i told you something that i beleived was 100% true and you knew it was true youself and beleived it to be 100% true, I am still wrong.
Thats my statement.
Because of this
I will never be surprised at the fact of me being wrong. And the associated mind game of always being right(right I win, wrong I lose)ceases to exist.
Search for truth, is no longer hindered by the gumstuck feelings of being wrong. The hurt pride and self doubt.
I am free to proceed on to find the purposful truth of the matter that i am attempting to define.

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